Mommy Needs A Time Out

There is a very high probability that I am going crazy. I feel like I have a million things to do and yet I have nothing to do and the only thing that I can think about doing is running away from it all. I have contemplated getting in my car and just driving with no real destination in sight. I have also contemplated going to the airport and boarding a plane...who really cares where it is going...I'll figure the rest out when I get where ever it may take me. Life seems to be going a million miles an hour but yet I am standing still. I am a big huge ball of emotion with no real outlet. I am in DESPERATE need of a break or at the very least a time out but in the mommy world this is next to impossible....somebody always needs something and there is almost never a quite moment....so desperate times call for desperate measures. I very quietly and as discreetly as possible went to the bathroom and put my bathing suit on underneath my clothes and walked outside without telling a soul. I then proceeded to get into the swimming pool (by myself!!) and float...there was complete silence (because no one had any idea where I was). I floated by myself for at least 30 minutes before I was discovered...by Brooke none the less. When she came out and jumped in the swimming pool (in her under ware of course...there was not enough time to put on a bathing suit) I simply explained to her that she could swim as long as she was quite because Mommy was having a time out. I am still in a sort of funk but I am a little closer to normal now thanks to my time out!