Thankful Heart Thursday

It was nine years ago today when I first found out I was going to be a mom. I remember taking that first pregnancy test and thinking to myself....quite literally....no freaking way! I must have taken 5 pregnancy tests that day....just expecting at least one of them to be negative. I was excited...happy....scared and nervous all rolled in to one. I had absolutely no idea....no earthly idea what to expect. Today exactly nine years later I have two sweet little girls that proudly call me mama. My life has changed in so many ways since that day. I couldn't possibly have imagined just how much motherhood would change me....there are days....many...many days....that those little girls drive me completely insane....they have tried my patience and taught me just how deep love can be.....but at the end of the day when all is said and done.... when they are tucked into bed and completely sound asleep I can't help but look at them and think about just how incredibly thankful I really am to be their mom.

Standing Between Me and Being Lazy

I have learned that having my grandparents as my neighbors has many perks...but probably my most favorite of them is the fact that I have not made a single cup of coffee in almost 5 months. Every single morning I just walk up to their house and drink theirs...I have also discovered there is something that makes coffee just a little bit better when you don't have to make it yourself :-) Now when I was a stay at home mom the first time around sure I drank coffee, but not every day because... well I am the only one in my house that drinks it and quite honestly I am too lazy to make a pot of coffee just for myself....so with no caffeine and my already keen ability to almost out lazy anyone....I spent a good amount of my time being just that.....lazy....seriously there were many times I would drop the kids off at school only to come home and go back to sleep....while my laundry pile just miraculously grew and grew. Since moving down here every morning my grandpa makes a full pot of coffee and I sit with him and help him drink it....sometimes we talk about what's going on...a lot of times he tells me old stories from when he grew up (it really was a different life back then)....and there are times when we just sit and watch TV together...and as if making me coffee wasn't enough the other morning he actually poured me a cup and brought it to me while I sat in the recliner....all the while giving me a hard time (something he has mastered over the years) about how I should be ashamed for making an old man cater to me. Truth be told I enjoy every second of our coffee time and I know I am incredibly blessed to have that old man around to cater to me....the only thing is after I am done drinking my coffee (normally 3 entire cups) I am usually in caffeine overload which means there is zero hope left in my days for laziness...so as it seems....standing there in between me and being lazy is my mostly crazy... but super loving....awesome coffee making grandpa :-) which in turn makes me a pretty lucky...mostly productive gal.

A hint of an update with a side of me time

okay....okay...I am well aware that this is long over due and I realize I could list at least a million things that have changed since my last post, but instead of boring everyone to tears I will just stick to the highlights. The two main (and most important) things that have happened are I quit my job and we moved....well technically I quit my job because we moved I didn't really just up and decide to quit my job one day (thought about it many times however)....anyway the real life changer was the fact that we moved....like a real move not just a change of house move that we have done so many times before....but a complete 4 hour away...change of location...I don't know where a single thing is move. My incredibly sweet great grandma passed away this summer and my family and I were blessed enough to get to move into her house. Now this house is a house that my grandpa and dad built pretty much by them selves about 40 or so years ago...so it is the only house I have ever known my grandma to live...I spent summers coming out here to see her so it is incredible to be able to have my girls out here....plus my grandpa and grandma are my neighbors which is pretty cool if you ask me. Those facts, however, did not change the fact that when we got here I knew no one and I literally had to GPS Walmart....so the girls and I spent the summer attempting to get out of the house and find things and meet people....and since I didn't know anyone that also meant that they didn't know anyone and were forced to play with each other so I also spent the majority of my summer trying not to kill both of them :-) But....just as quick as it started...summer ended...except this year when school started something exceptionally amazing in the world of motherhood happened.....BOTH of my children went!!! So there I was a stay at home mama again only this time I found myself with this incredibly strange thing called free time. Seven entire hours a day to try to decide how to spend....now I do still have the never ending chores that come with being a mom and running a household and blah...blah...and most days that is how I spend said free time....but believe me I am not entirely crazy...some days I do absolutely nothing (and try really hard not to feel bad about it)....and some days like today I have a selfish day and go get a massage and facial...now I am pretty positive if you were to ask the husband he would say stuff like that is a waste of money....but if you were to ask me (and lets be honest I am the one who counts) stuff like that....days like today....a little piece of sanity in this crazy world of motherhood....is worth every single penny.