Then There's Days Like This

We got an early start this morning and before I knew it we were making the drive to go see a magician with the play group. Brooke has talked about it for days non stop. Of course we were running late so we get there and the show has already started but we go in anyway and we get to stay for all of 15 minutes before I couldn't handle Paige any more. So I bribed Brooke with ice cream and we left. I wasn't ready to go home yet (because I just drove 40 minutes) so I decided we would stop by my old work and say hi to everyone. Brooke LOVES going up there because she gets candy and gets to play on the type writer. Paige loves going up there because it is a whole new environment to get into stuff. I love going up there because I miss everyone dearly!! I worked there for four years and loved (just about) every second of it! I could not have asked for a better boss or co-workers, so it is nice to go up there and see everyone. But every time I leave after visiting when I should be happy...I can't help but be bummed. Going up there and seeing everyone and the changes to the office and everything just makes me miss the place. I spent four years of my life at that place..it was almost like home (I probably spent more time there than my actual house)...and the people became like family. The last six months that I worked there were rough on everyone...my kids were sick ALL the time...and when they weren't sick...I was...I had two hospital stays in that time and I have NEVER been to the doctor so much. I was letting my co-workers down to be with my kids and when I would go to work I felt like I was neglecting my kids....it was a bad situation all together and I know I made the right decision...(God can only give you so many signs ya know!!!)...and I am forever grateful for the chance to watch my children grow and be part of their everyday lives....but days like this I miss my job and my co-workers and I suppose if you twisted my arm behind my back I would say that I even miss my lunch break!!