Two days ago we were riding in the car...it was me driving (of course) with Brooke and Paige in the backseat. Just another normal every day occurance until from the back seat my five year old, Brooke, asks me a simple (to her) question..."Hey mom, how does it feel to have kids?" She didn't know it but at that very second she took my breathe away and made my heart skip a beat...there was no way for one second that I could wrap that up into an answer on a five year old level. So I actually said to her "You know, I don't really know"...and I wasn't lying...I really didn't know how it felt to have kids because...well I never really thought about it...I mean I have been a mom for five years...it is what I am...it defines my character...but I never really thought how it "felt" because...I just couldn't see my life being any other way. I always knew I wanted to be a mom...for as long back as I can remember I have deeply loved children. The funny thing is...you don't really understand how deep love is until you have your own. Looking into the faces of my girls I know whole heartedly without a doubt in the world that God exists. The love that me and my girls have is indescribable. They are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I thank God everyday for the chance to be their mother...there aren't quite words to describe or even give justice to how that "feels" so after two days of pondering...I still don't have an answer for her.
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