With a new year comes a time for self reflection. As everyone around you is making resolutions it causes you to examine yourself and search for ways to self improve. Funny thing I learned is that when someone else points out your downfalls it is rather easy to step back and see all the things that need improvement. I have been a stay at home mom now for almost two years (I seriously can't believe that!!!) and I do love it...sure....there are days that I wonder what the heck I was thinking but if we are being honest I wouldn't trade a second of this life. The thing is becoming a stay at home mom means that things quickly went from semi normal to insanely and abruptly crazy. When I worked I had a routine that I HAD to stick to or I would inevitably be late for something. I dropped the girls off, went to the office, picked the girls up, went to the gym and somewhere in between all of that managed to run a household. Now that I am a stay at home mom routine is a thing of the past and there are days I feel like I can't even manage a household. I have become your typical garden variety housewife and at any given time I have two handfuls of tasks that need to be completed and as I start checking things off my list Paige is right behind me creating more things for me to add. There are days that I don't shower until 6 o'clock at night.....there are many, many mornings that I can be found in the drop off line at Brooke's school in my pajamas....and if we are being honest there are even afternoons that you can find me in the pickup line in the same pajamas. I don't go to the gym as often as I should and if we are being honest....by that I mean virtually never. I used to eat healthy and now I just eat whatever takes the least amount of time to consume.....so I can get right back to my million tasks. If we are being honest there are days that I don't do anything.....well I do manage to change channels on the tv while I lay around and look at piles of laundry and dishes in the sink. I don't consider myself lazy...I just consider myself tired and with so many things to do it is sometimes hard to determine where to start. So as we enter the new year....my "not so resolutions" resolutions would be #1. to start being honest with myself.....after two years I should know that no matter how productive I am I can not accomplish every single task every single day nor should I expect to and that is OK. #2. I would like to create some sort of routine in this madness (maybe the first thing on the list every morning should be to get dressed) #3. I know, I know it is completely cliche, but I not only resolve I VOW to go to the gym (or at least get off the couch) and make healthier eating choices (even if it takes a little longer) so that I can lose the 40 pounds that have decided to accompany me on this stay at home mom journey (because I really don't remember inviting them!!) But....if I do absolutely none of those things the one thing that I will do in 2011 is try to be the best dang mom that I can be. I will love those girls and soak up every minute of this experience because I know that I won't always be a stay at home mom...and they won't always be so stinking sweet. I thank God every day for the opportunity to be their mom and if we are being honest.....that REALLY IS all that matters in this crazy little thing called my life.
Kasside, I can totally relate! Have you heard of flylady? She says get dressed down to your shoes every morning. (but I don't) I also have around 40 pounds to lose now. Sounds so hard but it needs to be done!
ReplyDeleteJill, I used to use flyladys cleaning schedule when I worked (and loved it), but have not even looked at any of her stuff since I have been home (I forgot all about it)....but thank you for reminding me of her....I am going to check that out right now since it is probably much more relevant to me these days :-)
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